Saturday, August 1, 2020

if i showed up at your party with a blog post: thoughts on Taylor Swift's folklore, art in the age of covid, and how fame can be a cage

Hey there, fellow Swifties (...and everyone else, I guess). Let's talk Taylor Swift's new album, fame's effect on the public's perception of art, and how fame can be an artistic cage from which there is no escape (you know, keepin’ it light). I meant to do this on Saturday, and then again Sunday, and then every day after that until now, but I’ve been pretty beat from starting a new job so I just...didn't. I did, however, listen to the album twice through on a long walk the day of its release and then on and off all week...more on that soon. This is going to be less of a traditional review and more of an exploration of art and fame and why I think people reacted to this record in the ways they did (and also a bit of a review because OH MY GOD TAYLOR RELEASED TS8 ALREADY?!) and what this means in terms of pop artists as “real” artists -- so let's do this.

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With the surprise release of folklore (which will obviously remain styled as lowercase in this post, along with the song titles) combined with my own personal abstinence from social media during the week, my experience with this album has been unusual. After she announced the album, I received a few messages via text and Snapchat from friends who knew I wasn't going to be on Twitter or Instagram to see it. But the first person who sent it to me (coincidentally the person who first showed me "Teardrops on My Guitar" wayyyyyy back when her first album dropped, and the only person whose message I checked while at work), simply sent me a screenshot of the announcement and a few exclamation points. Y'all, this is how I want to be alerted of these things. It was perfect. I essentially got to read only Taylor's words and went back to work, my mind racing about what could possibly be on this record.

The album dropped. The "cardigan" video dropped. I woke up the next morning (Friday) and watched the "cardigan" video before work. It's my new favorite of her videos, I'm pretty sure. What a gorgeous, simple, imaginative distillation of Taylor Swift as an artist; it felt deeply personal while remaining ridiculously simple, and that’s hard to do. Keep in mind: I have not been on social media AT ALL during this time. So I got half a day to anticipate a new Taylor Swift album before it dropped without anyone's opinions but my own, and then I heard a new song/video without knowing anyone's reaction to any of it. None of my coworkers talked about it either. I was experiencing the rollout of a Taylor Swift album in a vacuum, alone. One of the biggest popstar/singer-songwriters in the world, and I haven't been marketed to or influenced by anyone but the artist herself via a single screenshot of an Instagram post. That day after work, I went on a walk with my headphones to a trail near my house and started the album. Then, when the album finished, I realized I was like an hour walk away from home, so I texted a couple people about my first impressions and started the album a second time on the walk home. Both times I heard the album, I was surrounded by trees on a trail, alone, with an overcast sky. There could not be a better way to first experience a record like this. And then I got home. And then I went to bed knowing that when morning came and I redownloaded Twitter and Instagram, my perception of this album and the things I would say about it and the defenses or criticisms I would have, all of it, would be tainted by the "global public conversation" and would never go back. In fact, even writing this post is difficult because it’s been “so long” since the album has come out and I’ve heard so many reactions.

So, let's talk about first impressions. I think most if not all of these still stand, even after hearing a few opinions from other people. Obviously I love the production. Melancholy pianos, gentle guitar, lush subdued synths, subtle electronics...musically, this is an album I've wanted from Taylor since Red. It’s so dang dreamy. The "how have we not done this sooner?!" collaborative team of Swift, Messner, and Antonoff was a glorious combination of musicians/producers, but that's not even the best part: this is the first Taylor Swift album with the lack of traditional “marketing machine” singles. There’s no “ME!” or “Look What You Made Me Do” to be found, which makes the overall tone of the album feel more “artistically elevated” and probably is why so many jaded critics and “hipster-types” are allowing themselves to like a full Taylor Swift album; they’re “allowed” now since this is a “serious” work of art. Sigh. And then there's lyrics. I mean, dang, folklore is like an entire album of "It's Nice To Have A Friend"-type songs (which was easily in my top three tracks from Lover) -- storytelling is in the forefront, and the music is a cozy old bed for the nostalgia-drenched character writing. Personally, I predict she’ll continue on the trajectory of writing narrative-focused songs in lieu of the usual “extension/parody of herself” stuff we’ve always had, mostly due to her finally being in a stable relationship that has remained more or less out of the public eye, as well as the fact that she’s just matured a ton over the past couple years and can handle herself better than ever when it comes to being so ridiculously famous. She’s always been a good storyteller (I mean, she’s basically constructed her entire fame narrative, or at the very least has been able to roll with the punches and adapt and make sooo much money off of it) so it only makes sense that we get more of these made-up characters and story songs. In my wildest dreams, I’m secretly hoping for a full-blown narrative concept album about two characters and the entire scope of their relationship from beginning to end, splitting off into a “two part” ending where they each grow in their own ways from such a relationship and move on separately, or even a double-album where each person gets a full-blown perspective record about the same events, but hey, I won’t get my hopes up I guess. It’d be cool though, yeah?

Individual tracks that personally stuck out to me upon first/second listen were “exile” “seven” “illicit affairs” “betty” and “peace” but more importantly, the thing that caught me the most off-guard was that I really liked every song. There wasn’t a single song that I was like “meh…okay, when does the next one start?” and that is a rare thing from such a big pop star surprise dropping a 16 song, hour-long record. Granted, upon further listens, the highs are higher and the lows are lower, which happens when one familiarizes oneself with an album. The novelty wears off (a hilarious notion and sign of the times considering it’s been out for barely a week) and the favorites get solidified while the lesser-liked tracks fade into “sometimes I skip that one.” But songs that were “okay” upon first listen are now some of my favorites (like, dude, “mirrorball” SLAYS me now and I was pretty lukewarm to it at first). As of right now, my top five are probably: “illicit affairs” “betty” “mirrorball” “exile” and “invisible string” but we all know these are subject to change. Overall though, I love how sonically cohesive this album is (I even have a hard time picking out which songs were done by which collaborator/producer, which is WILD considering how different Antonoff and Messner are as musicians). Oh, and as far as the profanity in the lyrics is concerned, I feel like if you’ve been paying attention to her more recent output (specifically reputation, Lover, and the Miss Americana documentary) it seems inevitable that she’d get a little spicy on the next album, ESPECIALLY with this one being framed as a “I get to do whatever I want this time/this was raw and unexpected/this was totally a gut decision” kind of album. It didn’t seem out of place to me at all, really. But I get why it does to some people.

Just because we’ve already entered “this is too long” territory, here’s a track-by-track reaction, limiting myself to two sentences per song.

1. the 1: maybe the most “classic Taylor Swift” song on the album. It’s nostalgic and clever and hopeful and sad and bouncy all at once—a solid album opener.

2. cardigan: after hearing this a few times, I guess it makes sense that this is the lead single since it serves as sort of a “thesis statement” for the record. But it’s not a normal Taylor Swift lead single, and that’s what makes it way better than the lead singles of albums past, in my opinion.

3. the last great american dynasty: I was pleasantly surprised by this one upon my first listen, and was thrilled to find out it’s the first of many story songs on the album. “She had a marvelous time ruining everything” is tailor-made for Instagram captions.

4. exile: also known as “The Last Time, Part Two” for the real ones, this is the first time since “Holocene” that Justin Vernon’s voice has moved me to tears. Without a doubt, this is one of Taylor Swift’s best songs to date, full-stop.

5. my tears ricochet: not gonna lie, I need this one to grow on me a bit more (although hearing that it can be read as an allegory for the Big Machine events makes it instantly more interesting to me) but I love the concept of someone attending their own wake. I hate to say it, and please don’t hate me for it, but…this is one of my least favorite track fives.

6. mirrorball: I think I was still reeling from “exile” the first time I heard this one, because the second time and beyond has solidified it as one of my favorites. I kind of want to play it for someone and not tell them it’s Taylor Swift to see if they notice, just because it sounds like a glorious emotional dreampop song from the 90’s or something, but then there’s that gorgeous circus-themed bridge…sigh, what a song.

7. seven: okay, ouch. This song is devastating and beautiful, and the first time I heard it, it reminded me of a short story I wrote that I intend to turn into a novella/novel one day; I’ll probably use this song for some mood inspiration when I finally tackle it.

8. august: the second of the three “love triangle” songs on the album, this one has some lines that are destined to be classics (I love “meet me behind the mall” so much) and I’ve noticed this one gets brought up a lot when people list their favorites, which is always nice. Even without the “love triangle” context, this is still a wistful, nostalgic “young love” song.

9. this is me trying: definitely some darker subject matter for her, but that just makes her hopeful delivery that much lighter. I’m excited for this one to keep growing on me or eventually show up in a movie.

10. illicit affairs: there’s a lot I could say about this song, but I’ll leave it at this: I’ve needed this song for years, and it’s one of my new favorite Taylor Swift songs overall. I cry every single time.

11. invisible string: this is sweet as sugar in summer, and on a personal note, I’m excited that I live in the same city as the Centennial Park she’s singing about. I’ve always absolutely adored that park, and when I first this song, I felt like I was there again.

12. mad woman: this one makes me go back and forth a lot. I really like it in context of the characters on the album, and I like that she’s getting a little snarkier with her feminism (how wild that this song and album came from the same person who wrote “Better Than Revenge”), but I think it’s probably lower in my rankings just because of how much I love a lot of the other songs.

13. epiphany: I really like the open, emotional feeling of the music in this one…but I always feel alienated by songs about the military. I wouldn’t cut this song from the album though, as the story (and its inspiration) are rich and worthwhile for sure. 

14. betty: this is a new classic Taylor Swift song, an adorable little love song, the completion of the “love triangle” storyline on the album, and another song where Taylor pushes herself as a lyricist while still remaining playful. I really don’t think this song could ever be absent from a “top five tracks” rank from this record.

15. peace: I have such a strange attraction to this song even though it’s nothing particularly earth-shattering for her. Personally I think this should have been the album closer…but I’m sure Tay has her reasons.

16. hoax: This is a beautiful song but I personally think it feels like a bonus track. Maybe that will change over time, but right now (like a week into the album’s release hahahah wow this thing is so new still) that’s how I feel.

(If you only cared about my thoughts on the album and not about anything bigger than that, you can probably jump ship now. We’re about to get all “what does folklore and Taylor Swift mean for sOcIeTy” from here on out.)

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Okay, that was a brief summary of my thoughts on the album itself (hahahahaha “brief” – but for real, I could totally keep going), but the main things that haven't let me go during this whole album release are these: (1) personally I will likely never get to experience such a high-profile album release like this again, with the minimal contact or social media opinions or discussion or outside anticipation from announcement to first-contact with the album, (2) artists like Taylor Swift don't get to make albums like these under usual circumstances, but because of a global pandemic, she got to do whatever she wanted in a way she likely won't be able to ever again, and (3) because of how famous Taylor Swift is, the public opinion is skewed for reasons entirely outside of the work itself, even when the herd thinks they are talking about the work itself, for better and worse.

Let's unpack these:

(1) This one’s easy. Somehow I managed to listen to an album from arguably the biggest pop star working today without any prior expectations from social media or other people. It was incredible. Not even the “ugh, she’s surprise releasing an album, guess I’ll hide in a hole so I don’t have to deal with hearing about it every day now” or “OMG TS8 ALREADY?!” from anyone. I was untainted. That, for me at least, only happens when it’s an artist that I’m the only one who I know is looking forward to it. But this time it was Taylor freaking Swift. That’s like being locked in a room for all of October 2007 without any contact with anyone, and suddenly Radiohead’s In Rainbows falls into my lap and all I know is that it’s a Radiohead album (which was also “surprise released” by the way) and that’s it. If you don’t know, Radiohead is one of those “opinion” bands and depending on your feelings about them, your reaction is more tied to the artist itself then the actual work, and it’s borderline insufferable to talk about them with other people sometimes, depending on who you’re talking to; the same is true for Taylor Swift. I’ll bring this up again later. And yes, I just compared Taylor Swift to Radiohead. I want you to deal with it.

(2) The global pandemic created a social/pop culture landscape unlike any of us have ever seen or will likely ever see again. We are all collectively thinking about “these uncertain times” with a haze of exception over everything (or at least many of us are, myself included considering I still think it’s March lol). There is a permanent asterisk for any new event (*this was during the COVID-19 pandemic) which gives us all a feeling of “we can secretly do whatever we want because we have an excuse” (which sounds more sinister than I intend). In the case of music, there are sooooo many musicians releasing new stuff right now and every announcement says something along the lines of “these songs were written as a way to get through quarantine” or “the isolation really made me think about blahblahblah and now here’s this album” or even simply “I was bored. Here’s music.”  That is bananas. We’ve never seen this before in the Age of the Internet. One of my favorite albums of 2020 so far, Songs for Pierre Chuvin by The Mountain Goats, hailed a return-to-form for the band where John Darnielle recorded a whole album onto tape in like ten days during March and released it, warts and all. Considering how The Mountain Goats’ prior album is basically chamber-pop with STUNNING production (seriously, go listen to In League with Dragons and follow it up with Songs for Pierre Chuvin for a wild ride of a juxtaposition), it’s unlikely the return to lo-fi would have been the follow-up release for the band. But then the pandemic happened. In the case of Taylor Swift and folklore, she took this opportunity to do things she otherwise wouldn’t be able to do due to the limitations of being so famous. Things like put out an album without any fanfare or singles (although “cardigan” has turned into the lead single and I kinda think she needs to stop putting out different versions of the same song on CD for pre-order AFTER putting out EIGHT different album covers for the main album itself…they’re beautiful, but even I will draw the line somewhere), drastically reinvent her sound after almost pigeonholing herself again resulting in a refreshing growth, avoid the months-long build-up of promotion OR the usual “surprise album drop” thing where the surprise is the main form of marketing, and of course say the word “fuck” in a song or two.

The reason any of this is important at all has nothing to do with how well she did it (even though I think the album is excellent and I’m so impressed that I’m still excited by her songwriting after this many albums and changes) but rather the fact that she’s SO famous without being artistically bankrupt. When you’re as talented as Taylor Swift (a great songwriter who has also created a lore for herself to the point where she’s been basically Ziggy Stardust-ing it for a decade, a total acrobat in terms of performing for the media and being a celebrity, and someone who has an intimate relationship with their fans without seeming totally fake) but also THAT famous, you don’t usually last that long or have the luxury of making the art you want. For instance, Lady Gaga reached a peak of fame and then dropped pretty hard when she tried to change (although she’s got her devoted fans and she’s made a bit of a comeback for sure) which is a shame because I think her first two releases are iconic of their era. It’s like Taylor Swift has found a way to have her cake and eat it too, and share it with her fans. Popstars of a similar level of stardom just don’t have Taylor’s knack for transparent fan connection; Taylor Swift has invited fans into her homeon more than one occasion to hang out and share new music, and it’s just something she does. Or the way she drops hints and easter eggs because she knows her fans are looking for them. There’s a language to being a Swiftie (ask a non-Swiftie “what’s your favorite track five?” and you’ll either get some blank stares or pulling out their phone to look up tracklists) unlike anything else in mainstream pop (I guess K-pop is about as close as we have right now, but it’s different). Taylor’s fanbase are like a giant friend group with Taylor as the mutual. It’s like she’s always been famous, but also still isn’t famous. She seems like she’s “just a girl who’s excited to write songs and play them for people yayyyyy!!” even though she keeps genre-hopping and it’s pretty obvious (even before she started putting it into her lore and celebrity persona) that she’s very much a professional in control of her image and output. Throw in the fact that she’s not at Big Machine anymore and she’s basically unstoppable as long as she keeps up the fan connection and quality songwriting. But she knows that. And that’s what makes her such a rarity. If I were as famous as her, I would probably collapse under the weight of trying to create anything that could be meaningful to me AND marketable to my millions of fans at the same time. I would feel trapped in a cage and would either lose my soul or I would disappear and try to put out art under an anonymous name (kind of like Damon Albarn with the early Gorillaz idea). So again, it’s not that she “redefined music” with this album by any stretch (folklore is a pretty straightforward collection of songs with mass appeal, especially among the “cottagecore” “indie as a genre” and “pseudo-rustic” types…perjoratively referred to as “basic white girls”) but the fact that she was able to make this change without any dip in her fan base. If anything, she just keeps growing the crowds with every release. She’s pulled off one of the hardest feats in popular music (something Bowie did for decades and eventually died being known for) and something few celebrities can do while still coming across as genuine: people want an album because SHE made it, not because the album is what’s popular.

(3) Finally, let’s talk about the detractors and the superfans. These are the people who hear Taylor Swift is dropping an album and either react with immediate disgust and annoyance OR with extreme excitement and angel choirs (I fall firmly into the latter camp, obviously). These two groups are the reason so many people just try to brace themselves and wait for the internet discourse to pass, like a wave pool but the waves are made by mean jerks and excited lunatics. I feel sorry for everyone in the middle just trying to swim.

When it comes to music, and art as a whole, there are ways of objectively evaluating it and then there’s pop culture. Sure, the line between them is easy to blur, and I personally consider myself someone who feels like that line should keep blurring but only so far as we still can see that line. I believe pop music should be evaluated with the same critical eye as “more artistically-minded” music (or as the jerkoff in your freshman philosophy class calls it “real music”) but that also leads us to, oh let’s say, comparing Taylor Swift to Radiohead. Or saying she’s starting to pull off something David Bowie pulled off. It’s the reason I’ve gotten in arguments with people comparing The Beatles and One Direction. When you blur the line between art and pop culture, things can get messy, because high popularity does not mean high quality, but sometimes things with the highest popularity are regarded more highly in hindsight than things of “higher quality,” and things of perceived “higher quality” are often treated as untouchable even when they were once “high popularity” -- especially with music. For instance, it should go without saying that I think David Bowie is more important to the art form of music than Taylor Swift. I don’t think anyone could even make the case in saying Taylor Swift is more important to the art form of music than David Bowie. It’s a laughable concept for a number of reasons (though I do think Taylor Swift has been contributing a bit more over the past couple albums than she ever has before). But in terms of pop culture, they ARE doing a similar thing (creating a fan base that will buy anything they make regardless of genre) just in a different scale/people group, and that is something I think musical/pop culture discourse is lacking: the ability to discuss “sacred” popular artists from days past in the same breath as more recent or still working popular artists, even if it’s just a simple comparison of something small like Taylor Swift and David Bowie challenging the masses by genre-jumping. I’m not saying it’s the same in quality, just the same in concept.

But anyway, I’ll try to hurry it up. I can’t believe this post is already so long. Good grief. Basically I think the album itself should be listened to while ignoring the superfans and the haters. I think this is true for most things, but it’s almost unavoidable when it comes to Taylor Swift. Her name, her “brand” persona, all of it is bigger than her individual output. For instance, imagine if Carly Rae Jepsen did the exact same thing Taylor just did: surprise-dropped an album that was a massive stylistic departure with no singles and working with beloved “sad indie” producers. It would be a completely different social reaction. I’m not talking about whether or not you think she’s a better songwriter; I’m talking entirely about fame. Taylor Swift is far more famous than Jepsen, but I believe an album like that from CRJ would be more celebrated by the detractors of folklore because I believe those detractors are reacting to Taylor Swift’s fame instead of her artistry or the album itself. It’s not about the music. By no means am I saying folklore is a perfect album, and it’s definitely worth critiquing. I’ve seen plenty of valid criticism, especially by people who know more about music production than me. All I’m saying is: be mindful of your biases. I had to keep my Swiftie side in check because I was about to make some pretty intense statements about Justin Vernon’s artistic output just because I got excited about “exile” when I stopped myself and realized extreme positive/negative statements only go so far.

The first time I heard folklore, I wanted to scream “THIS IS THE BEST TAYLOR SWIFT ALBUM BAR NONE SORRY RED AND 1989 YOU HAVE BEEN DETHRONED” but now after a week and letting myself chill out a bit, I’m able to think more objectively. And I hope you can too. Because whether you like it or not, Taylor Swift releasing an album is a big deal in the world of music right now, and it’s gonna get brought up when we look back on 2020 down the line.

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Y’all. I’m tired. And I’m sure you’re tired too. I’ve been writing myself in circles and making wild comparisons and…yeah. If you read all of this…wow. I’m impressed.

I’m gonna stop writing this post now. I’m not really sure how to end it. I guess I’ll just say…let’s keep talking about folklore? And Taylor Swift? And music? And art? Tell me your thoughts and theories, whether it’s about folklore and its folklore, or about its effect on pop culture, or whatever. Let’s talk about your favorite songs and why.

Because, really, it’s all about being excited about something you like. I’m all about being excited. And the world needs more of it.

If you need me, you’ll find me on my tallest tiptoes, spinning in my highest heels.

Tuesday, October 15, 2019

30 (End Of A Decade)

Today is my birthday, and it’s a birthday I’d felt staring at me for a while; I turned 30 today.

Naturally with such a “milestone” (one of the few that remain, unless you continue to make them for yourself – something I intend to do, of course) the question of a celebration looms. “What are you going to do for your big day?” “Thirty, huh? That’s a big one. Welcome to the club.” “Party hard! You’re obviously not getting younger!” I had my usual ideas in mind: a night out with friends before the actual day, a social battery-draining banger of an event full of hugs and laughter, and on the day itself, time to myself. I tend to close up and spend my day alone, reflecting and indulging in treats, as solitude has proven to be a lifelong balm of mine (and your birthday is the day that no one gets to question your plans). But this proved to be quite different than I expected.

Last night was said friend celebration, and it was one for the books. An endearing quirk of this city is everyone’s willingness to buy drinks and food for one another, which is obviously amplified on one’s birthday. I awoke this morning feeling every drop of whisky I’d consumed and every Motown song I’d boogied. I stayed in bed well into the afternoon, and overall, it was a good start to the day. I answered birthday texts and received a call from my brother (which I couldn’t hear because phones sometimes decide not to work) where his class sang “Happy Birthday” to me. An old friend with whom I’ve recently reconnected ordered Taco Bell and had it delivered to my house (which, as an aside, is a miracle of modern society. My new love language is friends from other states ordering food to be delivered to my house) and after I devoured it in bed, I just stayed there.

The familiar birthday anxiety crept in, and I became horrified that my day was dissolving in front of me. I mean, last year I spent all day feeling anxious and trying to enjoy myself that it culminated in me writing and recording a song in my car to get the feeling out…I didn’t exactly want to do that this year. I got out of bed, showered, all the while planning what all I could get done today, how much sunlight I had left, what more I could do to celebrate for myself, but as I got dressed, suddenly the anxiety broke like a fever. I didn’t need to cram my celebrating into today, because there wasn’t anything I wanted to do today that I hadn’t been doing since I moved to Nashville. Today, though still my birthday, wasn’t the clean cut fresh start I expected, because I’d already had it…and it all came down to this realization:

I have been celebrating my 30thbirthday since July 31stof this year.

Finally uprooting from Michigan and moving out of the state where I was born is the best birthday gift I could have ever given myself. I often half-joked for the latter portion of my twenties that I simply wouldn’t allow myself to turn 30 in Michigan or I’d never forgive me. I’d always wanted to leave, maybe for my whole life, and I did it. I’m not spending my birthday longing for what it could be like to live out there past the sprawling beautiful fields of the Midwest because I’m not there anymore. I’m in a city saturated with music, a neighbor to mountains, and a hive of talented, diverse people from all over the country coming together to experience a new place for themselves. Nashville has its problems, sure, and it’s certainly not my final home, but none of that matters. I got what I wanted, what I needed, what had seemed like a carrot on a string smacking me in the face for years. Ever since I arrived here, I’ve been celebrating my future, a fresh start, a new decade. Today just happens to be the calendar date for it.

So yeah, I’ll probably still hit a record store and indulge in a dinner out, but I’ve had my favorite gift for a few months now. I’ve begun a new decade with a massive step into my future where every single day feels new, really and truly new, and I don’t think I could be more excited for what’s to come.

I love you all. I miss you too.

Here’s to new.

Saturday, June 22, 2019

Up n Adam interview -- May 2019

It’s been almost four years since the debut full-length album from lo-fi bedroom pop act Up n Adam, and besides an EP and a handful of singles, he’s stayed relatively quiet…but that’s all about to change with a new album and the third annual (and perhaps final?) Michigan summer beach tour.

I recently had a chance to sit down with Adam to discuss the new album, hair length, and why it’s stupid to be elitist about anything at all.

[The following is edited for length. This dude would not shut up.]

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Me: Thanks for sitting down with me, Adam.

Up n Adam: Thanks for having me! I never get to do these things.

Me: It’s been almost four years since your debut album, Hugs. What’s changed since then?

UnA: Four years already?! I guess I’ve been working on this new album longer than I thought…but what’s changed? Not much. I still make dorky pop songs. But I like to think I’ve gotten way better at it. Listening to Hugs for me now is like listening to bad demos…I still love it to death, but if I had to do it now…well, it’d be the new album, actually. [laughs]

Me: Tell us a little bit about the new album.

UnA: It’s called Fun and it’s the absolute peak of what I’ve wanted from this project. The Grand Fun-ale, as it were.

Me: Wow. How do you mean?

UnA: Well, the whole point of Up n Adam has been to make little bursts of positivity and hope and love and fun, in song form. This new album is 20 songs of just that.

Me: Twenty songs?!

UnA: Yeah. Fun is technically a double-album. That’s why it’s taken me so long! There are two distinct halves – ten songs each – even though it’ll all fit on one CD. It’s about an hour long altogether.

Me: That’s a lot of ice cream. [laughs]

UnA: You have no idea. [laughs]

Me: What makes the two halves so different?

UnA: The first half is called “All Day” and the second is “All Night” – “All Day” is lyrically more day-focused and uses all real instrumentation…uke, bass guitar, melodica, stylophone, bells, shakers, thumb harp…I even use cookie tins and plastic boxes for percussion at some points. The only real exception is a drum machine, but I love the sound too much to not use it.

Me: And the “All Night” half?

UnA: That one is like “Up n Adam after dark” – completely electronic. It’s almost entirely digital, thematically about the feeling of nighttime, and it’s a huge dance record. Fun beats, catchy synth lines, just an all-out party. The only “real” things on it are my voice, stylophone, and a little sound clip of some pinball machines.

Me: That sounds like quite an undertaking to make.

UnA: Dude, I’ve never put so much energy and time and love into recording music before. I wanted this album to be a big ol’ mess. Tons of instruments, sounds, beats, and all of it centered around one thing – having fun.

Me: When do you think we’ll be able to hear it?

UnA: Soon…I’m throwing together some videos and finishing up mastering it now. I’m hoping to have the album out early this summer.

Me: Are you doing the beach tour this year? How did that little tradition start?

UnA: That’s the plan, yeah! I probably should get that sorted…it’s almost summer already! But it all started when I realized my music wasn’t exactly something you’d want to hear in a coffee shop or a bar. It’s perfect for a beach, though. I asked my Twitter followers what they thought and they seemed into the idea, so I packed up the car and hit the beach! It’s always a blast; free ice cream, gorgeous Michigan beaches, and my goofy self singing at you. This year will be the third one…and possibly the last.

Me: Last year you played with a musician called Sprout as well. Will she be joining you again?

UnA: I hope so! That’s my friend Chloë. The beach tours would never have happened without her; she came up with the idea for the banner, helped me make it and spray paint the stool I sit on when I play, and she’s the one who helped me make all the merch I have…not to mention, she’s the artist who did all of my cover artwork since the 25 EP way back in 2014. And of course she did the cover for Fun as well. She really helps me make these big silly ideas I have a reality.

Me: She’s basically the second member of Up n Adam?

UnA: [laughs] Yeah, more or less. The Beatles had George Martin and Brian Epstein. I’ve got Chloë and my brothers. 

Me: Wait, hold up, you said this beach tour might be the last one?

UnA: Yeah, maybe. I can’t promise I’ll still be living in Michigan next year, and even if I am, the places I’m going musically are getting a little bigger than a ukulele. It’s hard to say what’s going to happen next…I might not even have all this hair by the time the album drops!

Me: You do have a lot of hair.

UnA: Look who’s talking.

Me: Back to the new album, what were some of the musical influences on Fun?

UnA: The same stuff as usual. Say Hi, Relient K, really early Hellogoodbye, The Beach Boys…but this time the influences are a little more focused in their respective halves. So the “All Day” half of Fun is definitely more influenced by The Beach Boys, Hellogoodbye, Relient K, Blink, Weezer…it’s more the pop-punk side.

But the “All Night” half is a little different. That one is massively influenced by 80’s dance and pop music, like New Order, The Human League, Soft Cell, Phil Collins (and the very Collins-y era of Genesis), Bowie’s 80’s stuff. But it’s also pretty obviously influenced by Say Hi at times...and some more obscure songwriting influences like Joy Electric. There’s also some Lorde and Taylor Swift as well.

Me: Phil Collins…New Order…and…Taylor Swift? That sounds like an awful combination.

UnA: Hey, pop music is pop music. Every one of those artists use the exact same methods of writing songs, just with different instruments. If you’re hung up on the image they clothe their sounds in, you’re gonna miss out on a lot of really incredible art.

Me: …Taylor Swift and Phil Collins?

UnA: Being elitist about anything only hurts yourself. I’m not saying everyone has to like everything…there’s plenty of music I don’t like. But to limit yourself to only a couple genres or one scene or certain trends or whatever is only going to close you off to chances for something beautiful.

Me: Something beautiful like “Sussudio”? [laughs]

UnA: [laughs] Yep! Or the unabashed joy of “Shake It Off” or singing “Time After Time” in your car at the top of your lungs or dancing by yourself to “Blue Monday” – pop music is a focused injection of pure emotion in a tiny three-minute package. Because sometimes life can get heavy and you just need a little shot of happy to get you through it. And instead of turning to an unhealthy vice, we have pop music!

Me: Well thanks for chatting with me, Adam. Looking forward to the new album.

UnA: Of course!  Any time.

Me: How exactly do you end an interview with yourself?

UnA: I dunno, man. I guess we just stop.

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Fun, the sort-of double-album from Up n Adam, is coming soon.

lovelovelove

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

Up n Adam - Hugs: Track-By-Track

Hi!

While I was recording the first full-length Up n Adam album, Hugs, during the Summer of 2015, a friend of mine asked me to do a post giving a track-by-track explanation of the meanings or inspiration behind each of the songs. Of course I agreed to it, since I love talking about myself (and the things I make), but I also love when bands I admire do such explanations as well. I couldn’t say no at the chance to do one myself!

Now, if you’re a person who wants songs to speak for themselves and have no interest in the artistic intention behind them (even though these are just silly pop songs after all), then feel free to stop reading now. But for those of you who want to know where the idea for a song about a non-lethal bomb came from, who I’m singing about during which song, or why a grown man wrote anything with the word “noms” in the title, settle in, because here is my track-by-track explanation of my debut album, Hugs.


1. Hug
The intro to the album had actually been written long before I even learned how to play ukulele. When Up n Adam began, I originally envisioned it as an electronics-only project, a la old Hellogoodbye without the real drums or guitars, and no songs over three minutes in length. Just twee as all get out, and all electronic sounds. I absolutely love electronic music and the way it can feel so organic despite being…well, not…and my lyricism has always leaned toward pop music plastic with punky little hooks unashamedly inspired by Relient K. So anyway, this introduction came about when I was playing with the melody for “Hi,” which was the introduction on my first release, the Cartoon Heart EP. I knew I wanted my first album to be called Hugs for years. Like, actual years. The sound clip (from the movie Adam, no less) was there as soon as I recorded this song, and instantly relevant to what I wanted for the full-length. I love how this intro turned out. So much so that I hadn’t changed it since I recorded it three years prior.

2. Love Bomb
This was one of the last songs written for the record. I had gotten really into Weezer’s Pinkerton album (as all musicians do at some point?) at the time, and wanted to write a song that sounded like a Weezer song: a basic chord progression and lyrics about loneliness that weren’t entirely sad. I was also incredibly single at the time and couldn’t help but feel like all of my affection was bottled up, ready to explode all over the next person who so much as tried to hold my hand. Hence, a love bomb. I’m not completely happy with the recording, mostly due to my lack of electronic music resources (that electronic bridge was gonna be soooooo rad) so it honestly feels more like a demo than a finished song, but what’s done is done. I still dig it, and I think it kicks off the album nicely.

3. Dragon Noms
This here is the first Up n Adam song I ever wrote (besides the aforementioned “Hi”) and I still love it so much. I love the beat, I love the sounds, and I love the lyrics (even though the word “noms” is absolutely cringe-worthy most of the time). I’ve always been enamored with the “princess in a tower, saved by a knight” cliché, and even though the concept of a woman needing to be saved by a man is not only outdated but flat-out sexist, I can’t shake how much I love those old stories of the knight fighting a dragon for the heart of a lady. So I wrote a song about it. But the catch here is that the narrator (well, okay, me) isn’t some attractive, strong knight, but rather just a dorky dude who doesn’t want to fight. He’s gonna try to be nice to the dragon and see if he can go introduce himself to the princess, who might not even be trapped! She could just be hanging out up there because she wants to be, or maybe she’s studying to be a doctor or something. But maybe she IS being held there against her will! Here’s something crazy though: I recently realized the song can be read with a feminist interpretation where the dragon is actually the face the girl puts on to protect her real self (the princess in the tower) from the people who want to hurt her, oppress her, or use her. The way to connect with a guarded person is to be unguarded yourself, and be genuine in your intentions without ulterior motives. In this case, the way to connect with someone who has a guard up for protection is to lay down your sword (yay, pacifism!) and simply be real with that person. Because although the lyrics say the narrator adores the girl, it doesn’t technically say his intention is to become romantically involved her. So really it’s up to you if he’s a pansy knight trying to win the heart of a trapped princess (my original intention), or just a normal dude wanting to talk to a lady who (for good reason) is protecting herself from the scummy men of the earth. But anyway, that’s just me reading too much into my own stuff. How self-absorbed can I get? Keep reading to find out!

4. My Type
The idea for this song came from years of people telling me I have a type. You know, a “type” of girl I am attracted to more than other “types” of girls. That type is usually as follows: dark hair, big eyes, kinda short and small with an “cutesy” vibe in fashion and a personality as sweet as sugar. I also got super “into” bangs for a while. Like, think Zooey Deschanel circa 2009 but not nearly as “put together.” She is also “artsy” and likes music and movies, and maybe even makes her own. So this song was going to be about that, but as I wrote it, I realized something that I knew all along: types are a seriously unhealthy way of categorizing people. It ignores the “why” when it comes to these attributes. It takes away the “I do my hair like this because I like it this way” or “I can’t help that my eyes are this big” or “I like the music I like because my personal life can relate to it” and replaces it with selfish objectification. People aren’t meant to be put in boxes, especially people you know personally and intimately. So I revamped the song to make it robotic, like a girl was being made on an assembly line in my head, just for me. To be the girl I wanted, exactly how I wanted, instead of the person she may actually be. Which is just the worst. It’s probably the “darkest” song on the album, but I thought it had important things to say. Plus I love that “BAAAANNNGGGSSSS” harmony part.

5. The Ice Cream Song (Mushy Mush)
In the Winter/Spring of 2013 (I think?), my brother showed me how to play three chords on the ukulele, and I ran with it. I got a uke for my birthday that year, but I borrowed his ukulele for far too long, and played it constantly. I taught myself more chords, and the next thing I knew, I was writing my first original song on the ukulele. This was that song. It’s a grand total of three chords, has a frantic strumming pattern, and is about as easy and poppy as you can get. It’s evolved a bit since I first learned it (there’s a YouTube video floating around of me playing it around that time…) but it remains a staple in the Up n Adam catalog. It’s cute, it’s easy, and it’s catchy. One of my favorite songs I’ve ever written.

6. Summer Smiles
Speaking of favorite songs I’ve ever written, “Summer Smiles” is arguably the best ukulele-driven song on the album. My brother compared it to The Beatles (which is, obviously, impossible…but thank you, Nick) and I knew I had something special. The version on the album is, in my opinion, the best recording of it by far, and I still find myself humming along to it every once in a while.

7. Everything Sucks (Except You)
Okay. I know this is probably the one you want to know the background for the most, and you won’t be disappointed. Or maybe you will. I dunno. Anyway, back in high school, my brother Nick and I were in a band together—an acoustic-punk duo. We released two EP’s, played a few shows, and basically just had an awesome time. It was around this time the idea for a solo project (which eventually became Up n Adam) was born, but I was going to only use my voice because I couldn’t play any instruments besides a little bit of bass guitar, and no one wants to hear a bad singer over a lonely bass guitar. Woof. So one day after school, I went downstairs and threw this song together, thinking it was hilarious. That terrible high school version is long since gone, but I never forgot how it went, and I knew that it would eventually make a comeback. And now, it has a home on my debut album. So what’s a bit of a joke song is actually a little treat to myself for not giving up on the dream of putting out a solo pop record. Disappointed? I hope not!

8. Long Distance Relationships Are Only Romantic on the Outside
Long distance relationships are the worst. We all know this. You like a person, but they live far away, and now you’re stuck in the “wait, I like them but can’t see them?!” limbo for hopefully not an indefinite amount of time. I wrote the lyrics for this song when I was in my second ever Serious Relationship, with a girl who went to the same college as I did, but had to go home for the Summer. It was a bummer, but it wasn’t indefinite. However, when I started writing the lyrics, all of the references and inspiration ended up coming from my first real relationship, which was entirely long distance. Despite both of these relationships ending, the feeling of how long distance relationships are incredibly difficult was still relevant in my long stint of singleness, so much so that I knew I still wanted to write this song and put it on the album. The bridge contains lyrics by Death Cab For Cutie, in case you didn’t know, from their album called Transatlanticism, which, if you haven’t heard it, is one of the greatest albums of music ever created, and you need to go listen to it right this instant if you haven’t yet. Seriously. Spotify or YouTube or buy or whatever it. Now. It also contains a few references to the difficulty of relationship separation, so it seemed all too relevant to add to the song. I’m definitely not the person to ask for encouragement if you’re in a long distance relationship due to my rocky history with them, but I will say this: as long as you’re happy, distance can suck a big, fat one.

9. Romero + Juliet
The living dead have had a weird spike in popularity since 2004’s release of Zack Snyder’s remake of Dawn of the Dead. It was around that time that I dove into horror movies pretty hard, and they still hold a special place in my heart, but during that time, no monster or murderer could hold a candle to the recently revived cannibalistic dead. There’s a pretty great zombie love song called “George Romero Will Be At Our Wedding” by a band called Showbread, as well as a slew of horror songs by another band called Harley Poe, all of which influenced the creation of this song. And it goes without saying that the Grandfather of Ghouls himself, George A. Romero, is the ultimate source of inspiration for this song. (Roam In Peace, George. Thank you.) However, the AMC show The Walking Dead did not influence this song at all, because it’s terrible. Anyway, I like this song and it was fun to do all the moaning parts. I needed to have a little splatter of horror on the album, and this one does just—ah! Look out behind you!!

10. Summer Sendoff
If the majority of the album feels like Summer, this song is the part where that motif wraps up. I wrote this song when I lived in Kalamazoo a few months before I moved to Grand Rapids, and it was inspired by a few friends I had there that I realized I wouldn’t be seeing for a while, so I wanted to see them as much as I could before I left. It’s still a happy song, but there’s a chilly Autumn air of sadness that blows through it and welcomes the coming coziness of Fall’s changes. The talking sounds and such that you hear were secretly recorded at my friends Zach and Colby’s wedding when we were all sitting around the fire talking and having fun. I’m not even sure if they know I put all of this on here…but it’s too late to ask for permission now. Anyway, I really like how this one turned out and sort of calms the album down for the final two tracks.

11. Cartoon Heart
If any song on this album represents what I originally intended for the deeper parts of Up n Adam as a project, it’s this one. Cartoon Heart is entirely electronic, “sprawling” into four-minute territory, with cozy lyrics about unconditional love and acceptance while still being cutesy. I love this song so much. It is, without a doubt, one of the best songs on the record and a staple in my music making catalog so far. This is the one that I hear the most people say “oh, this part makes me cry” or “this part makes me feel so warm,” and those are the best things to hear for this song. This is also where the electronics stop for the album, making it the synth-y climax of the “tronica” part of ukulelectronica. One day, I hope to put out a record entirely made up of songs like this one. Until then, I’ll give this another listen.

12. Hugs
Album closers can be difficult; you have to sum up the entire record in one song, leaving the listener satisfied and yet wanting to come back for another go ‘round. My original intent was a massive, stupid 12-minute beast of a closer about everyone hugging each other in some huge world peace thing. Obviously that’s dumb (as a song, not an idea…because yay for world peace!), so I scrapped it, stripped it down to only ukulele, and made it about a simple hug and four words that can make the biggest difference: everything will be okay.

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Wow. That was long. Congratulations if you read the whole thing! If you did, let me know and I’ll give you a hug or a high five or something.

And obviously if you haven’t heard or don’t own Hugs, it can be purchased digitally on Bandcamp, or you can get a hand-made CD version of the album if you come to a show! There’s a Deluxe version and a regular ol’ version too! And I have stickers and magnets and posters! Yay!

Here are all of the links for Up n Adam’s online stuff:

Bandcamp: upnadam.bandcamp.com
Facebook: Up n Adam
Twitter: @upnadammusic
Instagram: upnadammusic

Thank you for giving any of this the time of day, the attention of ear, or the openness of heart. It means more than this silly boy with a uke and a keyboard can say.

lovelovelove,

Adam